A Challenge From God

I spent my time today seeking God where He is.  This is new for me so I am still learning the best way to do this.  I don't have any magic answers or fancy tricks to seek Him.  I am opening my heart, mind, and eyes to give Him the most opportunity to show Himself.  I'm getting small glimpses, but nothing whole picture.  Honestly, it is frustrating.  I haven't had something like this in my journey for a very long time.  God is taking me to a new place in my relationship with Him and I desperately want to go there, I just need to learn the way.  So, I am practicing with Jesus.  He is leading me in the paths of righteousness to come into full communion with God where He is.  A new depth of relationship is a beautiful thing, I just need to get there and I'm thankful for the Spirit's prompting to help.

My "God Box"

God seems to be very silent these last few weeks.  I have listened carefully and have read scripture seeking.  I have asked trusted advisors for words of wisdom and God is being quiet.  When this happens, because this isn't the first time, I usually begin to look around.  I don't sit and wallow thinking God has forgotten me.  Rather, I look to see where He is moving.  Sometimes when I seek God, I am looking for Him in a particular place or thinking He will respond in a particular way.  I need to stop looking for God in the "God box" I've fashioned and see Him where He is for who He is.  It's not easy.  At times, I don't want to see what He is really doing.  I want Him to do what I want Him to do or be where I want Him to be.  I believe the silence this time is God seeking me to meet Him where He is, instead of Him meeting me.

Waiting in Faith

Hosea 14:9 Who is wise? He will realize these things.  Who is discerning? He will understand them.  The ways of the Lord are right; the righteous walk in them, but the rebellious stumble in them.

I'm gonna be honest.  I'm just struggling these days.  I'm asking for discernment.  I'm asking for wisdom.  They don't seem to be within my reach and I just can't seem to figure out what do to.  I have checked in with my typical advisors, but none seem to have any idea either.  I'm not panicking, I'm being patient and waiting.  However, there comes a point where I feel like I need to set a time frame so there is an endpoint at which to aim.  The issue for me is that I know God is working, I just have no indication from Him on the timeline.  That's become my prayer, that He would give me the eyes to look on my situation with a higher perspective.

Mindful Meditation

I don't have anything to write about today.  It's not that God isn't moving.  It's that I need time to let my mind soak Him in with some quiet time and mindful meditation.  Stop and be with God.

Temper Tantrum

What the heck?! That's my newest reaction to a current situation.  I am awaiting word and nothing seems to be happening.  I am incredibly frustrated right now and have told God.  I actually said to Him today, I don't want to hear anything from you. I just want the situation to be done. I am tired of waiting.  I am tired of trying to discern His will.  I am tired of watching people flounder around.  I am ready for God to do what God is going to do and just get it done.  I'm sure there is a Psalm somewhere that says that same thing, but in a much more eloquent way. :-) Today, I am tired of waiting.  Oh, I know it's worth it, but I don't want to hear it.  I'm just done.  Thank the Lord He is big enough to handle my little temper tantrum.  That is all.  Carry on.

Distractions

Distractions. It's difficult at times for me to stay focused during my time with God.  It can even be tricky for me to get started on time with God.  I find my mind wandering from place to place.  I think about work. I think about home. I think about the lawn. I think about the weather.  Unfortunately, this happens all too often.  So, in order to focus on God and give Him the attention He deserves, I have to clear all distractions from the room along with all of the distractions of the day.  This is only done when I ask Him to take them.  When my mind begins to wander, I recognize the thinking and ask God to take that thought.  I also try to picture Jesus sitting on the throne as I look up at Him.  I give all of my mind and body over to Jesus through a conscious effort.  It's the only way that I can fully enter into time with Him, to make the effort to not give in to my own inattentiveness.

Day Off

I'm taking today off from writing because it's my birthday.  Thank the Lord for another birthday!  To live is Christ!