Fear, Control, Trust

God and I had a really good conversation today. It was a hard conversation, but it was good. I am being faced with one of my biggest fears as of late and I can now see God working through it.  I don't know what the purpose is completely, I just know that it is another area where I didn't recognize my desire for control. It's difficult because God is telling me to trust Him completely and that none of this is in my control. These are harsh words for me right now...fear, control, trust. I'm growing deeper and it is not a feel good time, that's for sure. However, it is beyond amazing to know that God is this interested in me as a human being that He cares enough to walk the road with me. Transformation is not all smiley and happy, but it is hopeful as I look toward what God is preparing me to do next.