I GIVE UP!

Psalm 91:15 He will call upon me, and I will answer him; I will be with him in trouble, I will deliver him and honor him.

Today I just needed to read God's words.  My word for the year is trust and boy has it been difficult.  God has even been very clear about what He is doing, but for some reason I am still struggling with trusting Him.  At this point my issue is with His timing.  I know God's timing is perfect, but trusting in the meanwhile is hard.  I know what the end result is, or at least I can kind of see what's coming, but the time that it's taking and the valleys to walk through in the midst of the waiting are daunting.  I try to stay focused on Jesus.  I remember He is always working for my good.  However, there are just moments where I just want to scream, "I GIVE UP!"  In a way, I guess that is exactly what I need to do, stop fussing with it all and just give it over to God.  Unfortunately, that is not my sentiment. :-)  I want to have a bad attitude about it all and tell God to just do whatever He wants whenever He wants.  I desperately need an attitude adjustment.  I think that's exactly why the Spirit sent me to the Word.  It is a gentle reminder, as only the Spirit can give, that when I scream at God, He hears me, He is with me and He is working on it.  Even in my bad attitude God loves me and is on my side.  Humbling.