Relinquish Control

I'm such a figurer (I know it's not a word) and a planner.  I can't stop figuring out things with our budget or working through what the next steps in a specific journey need to be in order to get from point A to point B.  I am definitely strategic.  This comes in handy when you have a vision to implement or need to help people make little steps to get to the big picture.  However, in trusting God, it is horrendous.  I find myself taking back the responsibility for planning when I had given it to Him only a month or so ago.  Really?  Do I love control that much?  Oh, I use the word responsibility most of the time to describe it because it softens the blow, but really it is all about control.  And God has had to allow me to get so deep in my own mess so that the only option I have is to say, "God, you take it.  I can't do it."  How I wish I could be that person who just hands everything over to God without a struggle, but I'm not.  I disappoint myself. Thankfully God is never disappointed in me.  He loves me through the struggle.  What a relief!  So, Lord, you can have it back.  Change my heart to relinquish control to you and leave it in your hands.