Fill In the Gap

Ah, the ebb and flow of a journey with Jesus. One day I'm great with everything being in God's hands and then the next day I am scared and frustrated. Patience is something I have with children, but I struggle with it pretty much everywhere else.  Part of the issue is that I let myself fill in the gaps and reasons as to why something may be taking a long time.  And, unfortunately, I fill in those gaps with awful, horrible things.  I never fill in the gap with a good, positive thing.  It's never that God is working out a small detail, or the person is looking into a possible option for me.  It's that they've already made their decision and I'm not a part of it.  I'm always the one getting screwed when I fill in the gaps.  You'd think I'd learn over the years how to just let it go and let God.  Great saying, right? But that is just not something I do well.  I have to constantly be reminded by God that He's got it and that He will work out the best for me, whatever that may be. And my heart knows it will be best and it knows He will carry me through if the outcome is difficult, but I like to be in the know with my brain and waiting is not being in the know.  So, today I will calm my brain and just focus on Jesus.  When I want to fill in the gaps, I'll fill them in with Jesus.  That should do. ;-)