Selfish Motives

Why is it that I'm always requesting something of God?  Lately, when I start into some new journey or take a different path with God, I find myself hoping that I get something out of it.  My own selfishness kind of slaps me in the face.  I don't seem to do anything with the simple intention of being with Jesus.  I want something more to occur.  I realize there can be a health in that, always recognizing one's need to grow and change and not having arrived at perfection, but for some reason today I feel as though my motives are only selfish.  I am trying to gain wisdom or perspective or clarity.  All are good, but my intentions are not.  I want to be in the know.  It's reminding me that I would have eaten the fruit, just as Eve did.  I have a sin nature that is not completely transformed yet.  So, now what?  I'm turning this selfishness over to Jesus.  I am simply going to spend time with Him, just to be with Him.  Nothing in mind.  Nothing to aim for.  Not expecting anything.  Just time with Jesus.  He can do something about my sin nature and get me back on the path of righteousness.