Trust

My word for this year is trust.  God has been challenging me with this and moving me in the direction of fully trusting in him.  For many years, I thought that I trusted God fully with everything.  Oh, how wrong we can be about our own selves.  We get so acquainted with our own thoughts that we slowly begin to think they must be from God because they are just part of who we are.  However, this could not be farther from the truth.  Some new situation comes about and I find myself in panic mode.  How  is this happening?  I thought I trusted God with everything! Slowly but surely, the Spirit begins to speak words of life into my distressed soul.  I find that Jesus keeps whispering in the background "trust me" as I walk through the valley.  The Spirit guides my thoughts and prayers, leading me to a deeper understanding of trust, or the lack there of, and helping me to release the situation into the capable hands of the Father.  Trusting God to be there when we fall, not keep us from falling, is one of the hardest lessons to learn.  Trusting that He will heal all of the wounds from our moments of disappointment is just not that easy.  I look for opportunities to build this trust little by little, but there are times when God gives me a big opportunity and asks, "Do you trust me?"  My response is a deep breath and a humble, "Yes, Lord."

Psalm 9:10 Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, Lord, have never forsaken those who seek you.