Being Actively Still

Psalm 21:7 For the king trusts in the Lord; through the unfailing love of the Most High he will not be shaken.

Trusting in the Lord has been something I have been working on over the last 9 months or so.  I have written about it in the past, I believe, about the fact that I had faith in God, but that trusting in Him is so different.  In a similar way, I have learned also that I was good at trusting in God's timing but didn't really trust in His providence.  All of these have been pressed in the last 9 months: faith, trust, timing, and providence.  I had the faith that God was going to do something, but I didn't want to trust Him for it fully.  I wanted to take matters into my own hands and do the things that I have skills to accomplish.  God had me be still and wrestle with trusting Him to do the things I wanted so badly to do on my own.  He challenged me to trust Him in a way I had never done before, by being actively still. It's an oxymoron, I know. Then came the challenge of trusting in God's providence.  Because of prior experience with God, I knew that His timing would be perfect and that He had that under complete control.  However, the providence piece was something I had not considered. It was easy to wait for the timing when I knew what was coming.  It was a completely different experience to wait for the timing when I had no clue what was coming, and it didn't seem like anything was going to come.  That was when God mad His providence known.  He brought things to me in a way I would have never concocted and did it at a time that seemed completely ridiculous.  It has been an incredible journey.  Have you ever considered your own walk in terms of the faith, trust, timing and providence of our Lord? Only when we have wrestled with our own humanity and God's divinity can we truly understand the psalmist.