Has God Left?

As I sit on my couch and ponder on God, I am left blank.  Does that mean God has left me?  Does it mean that God doesn't care?  These questions cannot be answered with yes, but that's exactly what we will say.  We don't feel God, so we presume He has gone from us.  We feel alone, so we presume God doesn't care.  We could not be farther from the truth in these moments.  God is with us, and He cares deeply.  So what's the deal?  Why do we struggle with these thoughts, and why don't we feel Him all the time?  We want God when we want God.  Hmm...meaning, we only want God when it fits into our lives and our plans.  The truth is...God is in our lives continually.  Our struggle is that we only tend to look for Him when it is convenient for us.  Then we can't always find Him because we aren't really sure who He is.  Sometimes I believe God leaves me "blank" so that I have to wrestle with my own misconceptions/presumptions about who He is.  I forget what I know and allow my mind to be clouded with untruth.  God gives me "blank" moments so that the Spirit can refill what I know to be true and reset my faith.  It's not God leaving me, but quite the opposite.  It is God filling me.