Ongoing Battle

Psalm 33:20 We wait in hope for the Lord; he is our help and our shield.

When I am disappointed in myself, I can't even imagine how God feels about me. And then He reminds me, He loves me.  He's not disappointed in me.  He is excited about what He is doing in me and He wishes I could focus on that too.  This is all about battle.  Battle that takes me to places that I can generally lean on God and get through.  The part that is tiring about battle is the fact that it is ongoing.  It does not end.  God gets you over one hurdle and then the next one is right there.  Satan knows our hurdles all too well.  He is slick at using them too, great at timing and placement.  This is why I want to focus on what God is doing in my life; how he is using these hurdles and battles to grow my heart deeper and narrow my focus on Him.  There are just days where I don't have it in me to fight and my heart shuts down for a bit.  I want to scream at God, "You do it!" And then I'm right where He wants me.  He wants to battle for me.  I just need to get over my pride and let Him.